A Day...

Prayer, communication, classes, exam, Italian resume, Italian tutoring, trying to speak in Italian and English at the same time (to two different people), EDGE Corps interview, coordination for going to California this weekend, packing for California this weekend, driving between my mom's house and school...

Today was sort of intense. Good. Busy. Draining. Productive. A little nerve-wracking.

In Japan, one of the staff asked me, "Wouldn't you rather be tired from doing good than from doing evil?" Yes. Yes, I would. But I'd much rather not be exhausted. Lately I've been contemplating this...

I know today looked the way it was supposed to look...and was full of many exciting things. Things I have to objectively remember that I'm passionate about while in the moment of "Holy cats! What is going on?! Stop, life! STOP!"

I don't know. I'm learning rest in God; but even in light of that, feeling full of energy is a gift from Him that I am not entitled to, nor something I can expect at the moment I want it. BUT I can be thankful that His help is sure, that I don't have to be worried about things beyond the moment I have allotted to work on them, that all I can do is my best and He is in control.

These things I know.

But there are still days like today just after which I can only make one face. It is this: O_O


(AND, btw, I am so excited to see Nanako and Yuuki, two friends from my summer in Japan, this weekend! YAY! I'll be able to express more of that excitement on my face tomorrow morning...)